Monday, April 12, 2010

Yoz yoz~

Its 12.36am in th morning and i can't seems to feel tired or sleepy.. Looks like my mind is used it, shit.. im behaving like an owl! and jus now i uploaded the wrong document to NTU online admission service!!! NOOOO..

Why am i so blur and stupid.. =.=

Well.. so much things had happen.. Currently im waiting for the results of my interview for the NIE placement, whether success or not.. if success you guys are going to call me Teacher Tan~ hahaa~
but if not.. well lets say we dun dwell in too much on that.. ^^

Thing is the person said results will be post to us by written mail in one or two weeks time.. SIANZ..
that means they will send to my aunt's house which is abit.. haiz.. how do i put this..
Plus the graduation letter too.. =C

The thing is there was this accident that i cause my aunt and her hundsband(which i refer here as uncle) quarrel.. and because of me la.. TWO times oso.. makes me damn sad and all..
because that time i was looking for a place to stay coz of work, so i ask my aunt b4 hand to ask her to discuss about it with uncle, but later on i notice she nv discuss with uncle and i called uncle to discuss about it and he was ok bout me staying over for two days..
But on that day, another aunt of mine called me and said my aunt and uncle quarrel because of this matter.. and ask me to find another resort..
Hahaa.. was kind of shock to hear that from her.. i tried to called aunt many times after that but she never pick them up.. and that i have to call uncle and apologize to him about this matter..

Why man.. that aunt was so kind and good to us but now she is like totally dun wan to pick my calls.. affect me quite alot.. so now i am very scare when i need to ask another favour on her again..
Well.. thats me.. im scare to bring trouble to ppl.. especially those that help me so much greatly..
and so.. HAIZ..

I always thought to myself that once i got work and a stable pay, im going to repay the kindness all the people who have help me in my life.. I can even name them now if u wan me too..
But why it has to be this way.. that aunt was so good to me and my brother.. =C

that is why when they say bout mailing to me.. i was very worried.. part of me was thinking."oh shit.. have to trouble aunt again..", another part of me is thinking, "Will aunt purposely throw my letter away or she purposely dun wan to inform me bout it??"

I hate this me right now..

Aunt.. please pick up my call next time.. i really wan to apologize to you and wan things to be like before again.. Please.. i have alread lose so much in my life.. =C












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